Dissolution

I had first fell in love with my perception of you

You were a bit nerdy

And so eager

And so in awe of me

Once my perception changed I no longer felt that way. I still loved you, but I hated that I did

For what felt like an eternity

So many chemical reactions back and forth fueled by passion

Your hatred is how I knew you still loved me throughout it

But eventually I’d moved on

While I wondered if you had too

And I was finally able to let go of all those attachments which kept me resenting you and the toxic waste we left from the past

And so when we got together for the last time, I was able to see not just my perception of you, or my attachment to you

I saw you

And I thought you were so beautiful

I’d known who you were to a deeper extent than anyone for many years, I knew things about yourself that you didn’t even know. Even yet, never like this

I felt myself falling back in love with you

…Right around the time I also sensed our final departure

You still held onto your hatred of me, which gave me a glimpse of hope

But only now I knew: that hatred is how you’d never love me how I loved you

I tried to get you to see what I saw. It was so beautiful, I wanted to share it with you so badly. I pitied you not being able to feel how I feel. Even knowing my attempt was in vain.

This time, there was no toxic reaction. We dissolved

It was the perfect time for terrible timing

The viewer can see the dramatic irony but they can’t control the story

As you walked out that door, I sat back in awe at the last moment I’d had your attention